Friday, January 26, 2007

A little right, right now

Yesterday, I finally got to get out and run on an ice and snow-free road for the first time all year. It was also a few degrees above 50 (F) which never hurts. Right around 50 with sun and no wind is what I consider perfect running conditions. It also helps if your body feels good. I did the two-a-day workout again yesterday but took it easy at lunch and saved myself for the run.

Boy, was it worth it.

I had to talk myself into a slower pace than normal because though I want to go all out, I don't want to ruin all the physical therapy and weight lifting work I've done. At least not yet. It was good to soak up some sun and just take in whatever was around me, though. I ran a route I've run at least a hundred times before but I noticed some things I hadn't before, too. The way the sun hit a certain window on the back of a house. The way the trail curved up the hill, the shadows of the tall trees framing the path. It was all very peaceful, like after all this up and down, I'd finally been allowed a calm, comfortable few miles.

The other day, Bre posted about a little ritual she has of reminding herself of what she's thankful for at the end of the day. I thought of this on my run yesterday and was nearly overwhelmed at the list I could make, and I'm someone who usually is grateful on a daily basis. A friend of mine, in fact, told me just the other day that if someone gave me a box of crap for my birthday, I'd dig through it looking for the Pony. Mostly, that's true. But on this run yesterday, I was reminded of just how many ponies I really do have.

Sometimes I can get so caught up in things not going as planned or even as hoped. I lose sight of all that I've accomplished because I'm already moving on to what's next. I start acting like things that happen as well as things I make happen are just pieces of a puzzle when, really, I think they are the puzzle. I catch myself in thoughts like will I ever do this or that when really, if I were to look back on the years, I'm already doing what I used to wonder about. It's not the dreams that aren't coming true, it's me constantly changing them that's the trouble. I think there's a balance there, though. I will always want better, want more, but I am reminded to take the time to want what I've got, too. Maybe, if we take those moments and take an inventory of what we really have, we are better suited for what's to come. Don't stop dreaming, of course, but also, stop long enough to realize that those dreams might be right now.

10 comments:

Danielle said...

Hey, the way life moves, it's always about change and different dreams, and hopes...you never know what is going to come, and when, so keeping shorter term dreams, along with the longer ones is important. But it definitely is important to remember what we have. Heck, 5 years ago I said I would "maybe run a 5K but had no interest in running a marathon"...ummm...5 under the belt and one more registered for I guess that was a wrong comment to make!!

Sizzle said...

well said. :)

Bre said...

First, running in ice and snow scares the bejeezes out of me.

Second, I started the lists because I was bogging myself down in the overwhelming negative... which is strange for me because I'm generally a happy-go-lucky kind of person. For me, especially at night when there's nothing to distract me but my own brain, it's really easy to get distracted by the bad things. So hopefully this is teaching me to appreciate what I've got. If not, at least it's good blog fodder!

Backofpack said...

Yet another insightful and well-written post. You certainly have a way with words. You are absolutely right - we get way to caught up in the future and forget to enjoy today. We do this all the time with children too - we are so worried about kindergarten or the next grade level up, that we forget to enjoy the amazing accomplishments that children make on a daily basis. Sometimes we forget how every little thing is new to them, what it felt like to just begin to learn to count, or recognize letters. Life is big! We need to acknowledge that and revel in it. Thanks for a thought provoking post!

e.b. said...

Well put girlie!

justacoolcat said...

Your so deep when you get in a good run.

adam said...

Thanks Bre and JR for a very good idea. I will think about ponies on my run today! Wait a minute I've never had a pony!

Sister Buckle said...

Totally - I think that's why we've got to talk to people, otherwise we get into this space of not being able to see all the cool stuff we've done. Other people step in and say - "oi! What about when you did that thing?" and we go "Oh yeah..."

Dawn said...

Digging through a box of crap huh? Well, God bless ya! :)

Nicole said...

What a beautiful post!
I'm one of those people who is never really satisfied - I'm getting better but it is nice to have reminders to enjoy the moment.