Tuesday, March 27, 2007

#@$!*&

Okay, so, running. Might as well just jump right in.

Two days after the half I ran ten days ago, I had an amazing run. Granted, it was only four miles but it was fast, had hills and I felt awesome! The following day, I wanted to go out for 6 and barely eeked out two. "Okay," I thought, "you're just tired. Try again tomorrow." So I did. I tried for 8, barely got 5.5 and felt like I'd been run over by a truck. My calves felt like someone had filled them with lead, and mile after mile, they never loosened up. I was a little discouraged.

I took the next two days off from running. Sunday came, a week after the half, and I set out for a long run. There's a marathon in May I'd like to do, so I needed to get the miles back up. I thought I'd try for 16. Yeah, didn't happen. I barely got 12 and once again, they felt awful. Just as in the previous two runs, I felt tired, slow and heavy. Whether it be mental weight or actual physical affects holding me back, I don't know. What I do know is, something's not there.

Sunday night, about 8 hours after my long run (which was followed by a short hike with my two young cousins and walking the dog) I was exhausted and ready to fall into bed. I thought about soaking my feet for a while (don't ask me why, it seemed logical at the time, really) and when I went to sit down on the edge of the tub I got a stabbing pain on the inside of my left knee that made loud, sailoresque words come out of my mouth without any forethought. Read: It hurt like a #@$!*&. I don't really know what a #@$!*& is, but let's just call it the worst possible knee pain I could have ever had. Much worse than my right knee has been, ever. It would happen again Monday morning when I sat down at my desk at work.

Since then, it has not really stopped hurting. Drugs take the edge off (legal, of course- though I see some desperation on the horizon should this situation not improve. Ha. Kidding. Mostly.) and ice helps a little, but most the time, it just hurts. I called and cried to my doctor yesterday at lunch and he can see me on Friday. I wanted to come in right then, but he convinced me to give it a few days saying "it might just be inflamed from your run." To which I responded, "what the hell does it matter if I can't run anyway? Maybe you just want me to turn into a huge, couch-loving, fat ass, huh? Is that it?" Okay, so not really but better he take the brunt of my frustration at $138 dollar per hour than my friends who I've not had to start paying yet (though that day may also be here if this doesn't get better).

So, no running yesterday. No running today. Likely, no running tomorrow. I always tell people, when they're injured or experiencing challenges in months before or after Summer "hey, better now than in June!" That's my positive way of saying that there are nicer months coming and it's better to be healthy then, than now. For the record, if someone said that to me today, I would slap them. Excuse the frustration in this post, I am clearly not dealing with this well just yet.

13 comments:

Danielle said...

Wow, that sucks about the knee. Due to the fact that it didn't start hurting till well after the run and hurts in non-running activity, I think your Dr. is wrong in saying it's inflamed from the run (but then I'm a runner and of course I'm never going to blame running for anything bad!!). Happy thoughts to you that it goes away quickly! Oh, and that heavy feeling, I so know where you're coming from and I have no idea how to get rid of it, but it eventually goes away.

Backofpack said...

What a bummer! I hope your knee settles down soon. Keep icing and taking ibuprofin till you see the doc. I don't know what to say about it - it sounds like you took it easy heading back into it after the half. Shoes? New or old? Wish I could help...

As for the heavy feeling, I've had days like that too. Check your hydration and fueling - even if it's just a short one. The day before always matters when it comes to food and drink. I hope this all resolves quickly!

And finally, WWGD? (What would Grandma do? - Think about the amazing woman you posted about yesterday - what would her response be?)

justacoolcat said...

Ick. Since I can't say anything to make you feel better I'll refrain from bike temptations.

Joe said...

Yikes, I've been there. The last time it happened to me, I took a couple of months off from running and just focused on swimming.

When I got back to running, my knee seemed like it was stronger than before and I had a renewed enthusiasm of running. Sure, I lost a little bit of running fitness but the regular swimming mitigated that. It only took me a few weeks to get back to where I was before the injury.

Maybe it's time to take a few extra days off from running and go to the pool or the weight gym instead? Think long term.

If you have to miss the marathon, so be it -- there will be other ones. Or, go in the marathon but just reduce your expectations.

justrun said...

Thanks for the support. You kids are cool.

Danielle- I don't want to believe him either, but he knows I have to be talked into patience.

Michelle- Thank you, you're right. You do always remind me to take that deep breath and get some perspective. I'll do it soon, promise. :)

JACC- Already thinking that. :)

Joe- You're right, time in the pool would be good. I have been in the weight gym religiously, so maybe the water is the answer.

Runner Girl FL said...

ARGHH!! I'm frustrated for you!!

NOT FAIR!! Hope it's better soon.

Sempre Libera said...

Ouch!

(wish I could offer some advice, but I'm at a loss)

Hope you're able to hit the road again soon...

Sizzle said...

well that just SUX!

i'd be swearing too. hope it improves.

Celina said...

I'm so sorry for your pain! I certainly don't do the "running thing," but I can hear the hurt and loss in your post (voice)! I hope everything gets figured out at the doctor's visit!
Take care!

Cami said...

Hope you feel better soon. Glad I found your site. Very motivational.

Ginger Breadman said...

that sucks. you said you've been in the weight room religiously, could that have aggravated anything? who knows. take it easy. I'd have to agree with your own comment - better now than later in the spring and summer. But maybe wait a day or two to read that comment.

egan said...

How about cross training with a little pool time instead?

Sorry to hear about the pain you're in. That's never any fun.

egan said...

Crap, I see Swimmer Joe beat me to the pool recommendation.